I never thought I would get anxiety going for groceries. So much as changed in the past 45 days or so. I thought I would write weekly and continue this post and share perspectives on some of the tough things in our world like abortion, immigration, and health insurance. Now I am not sure I will ever get to those posts nor if I want to spend the time writing those posts.
What have I learned since Covid-19?
I started watching a Netflix series called Dirty Money. I honestly had no clue how fucking corrupt our world really is. I suspect the series is relatively truthful, but I honestly do not know. Just the thought of what some of these people do to make money is disturbing. A co-worker called out I was not setting a great tone during a virtual happy hour. He was right, but these acts are shocking. The episode on Guardianship absolutely broke me.
We also watched another series called "Broken". As a former Environmental Chemist, I was appalled by the business tactics represented in this series. A great documentary series but again highlights the evil in our world today.
These documentaries set the stage.
The United States (maybe the world) is so polarized that I am not sure we will ever recover. As of today, I have decided I must stop using Facebook so frequently. I may look once a week to see positive things, but even the diverse people I call friends have so much angst. Especially when it comes to politics. Family members are not even willing to have a deep conversation on topics. There is such an "I (we) are right" and "you (y' all) are wrong" mindset. I deleted the Facebook app from my phone. I am considering the same action for Twitter and Slack. The always-on aspect of the digital age is starting to take a toll on me.
Special interests, corruption, and pure greed rule the day. When it comes to Congress passing bills there are always contingencies that have nothing to do with the problem at hand. The attitude seems to be I will sign the bill if you do this for me. Oh wait, then you need to do that too.
Our economic system appears to be so fragile. I would never imagine a virus would bring a global economy to its knees in such short order. Our world is made up of monopoly money and we simply grab another game set to increase the amount. Our daughter lost her first job that she absolutely loved. She is heartbroken and so are we. Millions of people are now unemployed and there is no money to support them all. I am blessed to still be employed, but I am not happy. Some talented people are now struggling to find their next opportunity. Again this breaks my heart because they are great people. I would like to try something new, but fear gets in the way. Will we have good insurance to support our illnesses and age? Will taking the risk of change generate enough income to at least sustain what we do today? Probably a third of the retirement savings vanished. I am afraid to look. I would love to retire in 10 years, but I do not see it happening. Under the current conditions, there is most likely a higher probability I will not make it to retirement.
People are hungry and some are unable to get food. Covid-19 has exposed how vulnerable the food supply chain truly is. I am eating less healthy than I should. I used to walk at least 4 days per week, but now the motivation is hard to muster and I am lucky to go twice per week. When I do go for a walk I hope I do not encounter other humans. I do not like wearing a mask. I do say good morning or Hi when I encounter others.
I am trying to remain positive, but when I glance at the future the only choices I see are not good. I used to view politicians as role models and today they are the total opposite. Social media and the general media cannot be trusted. We are left to our own processing of data to form any sense of the madness. What fucking sources do we trust? I trust none of them.
At the end of the day, I know what I stand for and what I have accomplished in life. I am proud of these accomplishments and the family we have fostered. I feel I could go on and on and on. I will end with this. Everyone should do at least one kind thing a day.
I am starting to get lost.
What have I learned since Covid-19?
I started watching a Netflix series called Dirty Money. I honestly had no clue how fucking corrupt our world really is. I suspect the series is relatively truthful, but I honestly do not know. Just the thought of what some of these people do to make money is disturbing. A co-worker called out I was not setting a great tone during a virtual happy hour. He was right, but these acts are shocking. The episode on Guardianship absolutely broke me.
We also watched another series called "Broken". As a former Environmental Chemist, I was appalled by the business tactics represented in this series. A great documentary series but again highlights the evil in our world today.
These documentaries set the stage.
The United States (maybe the world) is so polarized that I am not sure we will ever recover. As of today, I have decided I must stop using Facebook so frequently. I may look once a week to see positive things, but even the diverse people I call friends have so much angst. Especially when it comes to politics. Family members are not even willing to have a deep conversation on topics. There is such an "I (we) are right" and "you (y' all) are wrong" mindset. I deleted the Facebook app from my phone. I am considering the same action for Twitter and Slack. The always-on aspect of the digital age is starting to take a toll on me.
Special interests, corruption, and pure greed rule the day. When it comes to Congress passing bills there are always contingencies that have nothing to do with the problem at hand. The attitude seems to be I will sign the bill if you do this for me. Oh wait, then you need to do that too.
Our economic system appears to be so fragile. I would never imagine a virus would bring a global economy to its knees in such short order. Our world is made up of monopoly money and we simply grab another game set to increase the amount. Our daughter lost her first job that she absolutely loved. She is heartbroken and so are we. Millions of people are now unemployed and there is no money to support them all. I am blessed to still be employed, but I am not happy. Some talented people are now struggling to find their next opportunity. Again this breaks my heart because they are great people. I would like to try something new, but fear gets in the way. Will we have good insurance to support our illnesses and age? Will taking the risk of change generate enough income to at least sustain what we do today? Probably a third of the retirement savings vanished. I am afraid to look. I would love to retire in 10 years, but I do not see it happening. Under the current conditions, there is most likely a higher probability I will not make it to retirement.
People are hungry and some are unable to get food. Covid-19 has exposed how vulnerable the food supply chain truly is. I am eating less healthy than I should. I used to walk at least 4 days per week, but now the motivation is hard to muster and I am lucky to go twice per week. When I do go for a walk I hope I do not encounter other humans. I do not like wearing a mask. I do say good morning or Hi when I encounter others.
I am trying to remain positive, but when I glance at the future the only choices I see are not good. I used to view politicians as role models and today they are the total opposite. Social media and the general media cannot be trusted. We are left to our own processing of data to form any sense of the madness. What fucking sources do we trust? I trust none of them.
At the end of the day, I know what I stand for and what I have accomplished in life. I am proud of these accomplishments and the family we have fostered. I feel I could go on and on and on. I will end with this. Everyone should do at least one kind thing a day.
I am starting to get lost.